Unfinished

"My Soul finds Rest in God Alone"

Psalms 62:1

Minnesota: 3 weeks down. How many breaths have I taken? If we do the math correctly we would get a number that is probably alot higher than 345,893,009 breaths. These are breaths I have taken with people around me, in unfamiliar and familiar places.
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We are called TO LOVE, and to be loved. We are the Beloved of the Lord.

"Goals and the Process"

I wrote that paragraph above 5 months ago. Little did I realize, that finished products are not quite my cup of tea. As you can see, I stoped writing after the 4th sentence. I also have 26 blog "drafts", all within the past 3 months. (This blog will probably stay unfinished and if you read it, congrats, because I would be so lost). Not even my paintings that have seen hours of wet paint on them, have been called "FINISHED". Is something is wrong with me? I must loose motivation fast.

Back in April, I was painting in the studio.  We were in the midst of a conversation and my Profesor told me,

 

"Nothing ever is finished. If you call it finished, it wasnt worth the paint."

 

You see, when he said that to me, I turned around, my eyes widened, and I gave him the most sincere smile, . Finally, i was able to figure it out! I was so comforted knowing that the finished products arent always the purpose. I needed to hear that.

The problem with me, is my perspective is changing all the time... no wonder I cant finish anything.

Perspectives are constantly changing. A change of perspective bring us out of ruts, out of mood swings, bad behavior patterns, bad habbits. depressions, etc... A change of persepctive also enhances our lives. We see more, acknowledge more, realize more, and we are more aware. Perspectives allow us to be creative, and understanding.



However, today I struggled.

My perspective on my life was challenged.  I was thinking about my goals in life. Am I headed toward my finished product? Is what I am doing right now helping me get there? 
I dont want to talk about my specific life goals in the blog, that is for a personal converation that i will hopefuly have one day with you)

Goals are great, but it is the process that shapes and forms us. We may never get to our goal, perhaps that is not Gods desire for you, but instead his desire is shaping you into his Beloved. The process is where we see the life changes. The process is where you will see a new  glimpse into a new perspective,  new challenges, new loves, new understanding, and new goals arise.



It is the process that changes us.

Today,  I was reminded of Gods grace in my life. My Lord is domineering over my fears, pains, and anxiousness. Friends, dont ever leave his Word, hold fast, stay strong, take part in the blessings of his Sacraments, and cling to what is good. From there He shapes you into his.  We never finish, until we run into His arms.

my soul finds rest in God;
my salvation comes from him